I feel like my own sadness is brought upon myself. I feel like I always do something stupid to get myself into situations I don’t need to be in. Even the littlest things make me upset. And it’s not like I can’t avoid it. All the problems I have right now I have put myself in and it kind of sucks that I don’t learn from my mistakes a lot of times. I didn’t get to go to school this semester because I was too busy partying last semester to worry about it. I obviously didn’t know how to keep a relationship before, so I should maybe learn from my last one not to mess this one up. I feel like I’ll never grow up. And it sucks that I’m fine during the day, and when I’m around people. But when I evaluate myself I’m really not okay with what I am.